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A Book Recommendation
I want to make a short post to recommend a book. It’s short, because I’m busy getting ready to leave for my third week of job training to be a Certified Peer Specialist in mental health. The book is...
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Being Left Behind
A former lover killed himself two days ago. He was a kind, sweet gentle soul who never uttered a harsh word against anyone but his wife. Yes, he was a married man, and that’s just one of the reasons he...
View ArticleHealing Demons
I have now seen a meme twice. A meme is a viral phenomenon that spreads an idea from person to person in a given population. It’s also the slang term used to describe a trite saying usually accompanied...
View ArticleAction and Emotions
Healthy boundaries are important for anyone. I don’t have the best track record at maintaining them, but I am getting better at it. I recently put in place some new boundaries regarding two exes. The...
View ArticleComing Out
I’m gay. That’s not a surprise to regular readers. I came out many years ago. My story is complicated as most coming out stories are. I grew up in a rabidly fundamentalist household and learned at a...
View ArticleJust Sigh
I did something daring for myself last night. I went out. I went to a popular gay bar. I struck up a conversation with a young lady visiting from out of state. She was in town to visit a friend. I sat...
View ArticleMy Parents Disowned Me
When I was a teenager, my father threatened to kick me out of the house if I was gay. This trauma forced me deeper into the closet for many years and greatly affected my alcoholism when that happened....
View ArticleLong Road to Recovery
I’ve had some bleak days, but I’ve also had periods of calm. If you wonder what has happened, see my last post. I’ve been using my recovery tools. I’ve been using the medication my doctor gave me to...
View ArticleRecovery in Action
Recovery works. Over the past week, I have weathered a maelstrom that could have easily set me back. I could have easily slipped back into depression and spiraled out of the life I’ve created. Ten...
View ArticleI Finally Cried
It happened this morning. I went to bed early last night feeling quite depressed. I slept well much to my surprise, and I had a vivid dream about living in a big house with electric blinds and then...
View ArticleTurning the Corner
I had a great therapy session yesterday, and I slept nine hours last night. I feel great! I worked through some important points in therapy yesterday. I’ve been working through them for a long time,...
View ArticleBeing Gentle
I woke up after sleeping seven and a half hours in a panic. I was suddenly awake and afraid. I wanted to stay in bed, but it was useless. I was unavoidably awake. I struggled through my morning...
View ArticleThe Voice
How do I write when the inside of my head is so dark? How do I tell readers that my head is screaming at me using awful words? I have a lifetime of hearing disparaging things about homosexuals. I’ve...
View ArticleThe Plan
I had a session with my psychologist after work yesterday, and it was obviously timely. I needed it badly. Anyone who read yesterday’s post will understand I was not in a good mood. He helped me...
View ArticleReason for Hope
I feel good even if it is Monday. I got a letter from my dad last Friday that said I’ve dishonored the family name and I need to repent. When I read the letter, I felt nothing. I knew that was not...
View ArticleFeeling the Regrets
It’s been a bit since I last wrote. I’m working from home. My state has a stay-at-home order, so I’m not going out except to the grocery store or the pharmacy. I do go out for some exercise by speed...
View ArticleDeliberate Choice
I had a good text conversation this morning with an old friend. I haven’t talked to her in years like that. I wish I could say it was light banter, but we both had news to give the other. I started by...
View ArticleMish mash
I read an article by a man who was disowned by his parents at the age of eighteen. He spent a difficult summer living on the streets of New Orleans, and then he called his grandmother who took him in....
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